Inside My Head

Here's a little peak inside the head of an infertile woman:

Today is 5dp3dt. That's infertile speak for - 5 days past a transer of 3 day old embryos. Implantation is supposed to take place somewhere between 2 or 3 days past. So, I could be pregnant right now. That means - it's time to overanalyze every little twinge of my body.

Today, I feel a little crampy, a little naseous, and a little tired. This could be a result of the many drugs I'm still on. It could be from doing laundry last night. It could be gas. It could be the normal way that I feel on any given day... but I don't usually look into it this much. If someone complements the way I look - I think to myself, I must be glowing.

The truth is - there are no changes to my body yet. My logical mind knows this, but I can't stop hoping.